So, my fiance finally asked me the "big question" --obviously since I all ready refer to him as the fiance it wasn't about marriage =0p No, he asked me "have you lost any weight?" *sigh* I was honest and said no. He has been encouraging me to "up my intensity" at the gym (something that is more than a little annoying at times) and lecturing me on eating healthier. The concept of the gym, nutrition, and the overall phyisical/mental trasistion required to "get healthy" is a big deal for him. He likes the stuff (more power to him!), but as it is with most things, the doing has been rough. I feel like I am putting effort out there, I just can't decide if it is paying off yet.
The scale is the same weight --but is it just me or are these jeans a little looser than they used to be? Is it just me, or have my thighs shrunk just a little bit? Is my bra fitting just a little bit better? Is my tummy just a tiny bit smaller? I keep trying to look at myself for these changes. Problem is, I see myself every day. I'm not truely sure the changes are there. I think I'm going to take a picture of myself later today to try to get a better objective. I know, only 2 weeks into the whole "gym thing" I can expect miracles, but I do expect something!!!
My fiance's belly has been sick the last couple of days. Not sick "throwing up" but sick not feeling well. Heh, when he described his symptoms to me (feeling bloated, sharp occasional cramps, soreness, feeling drained, etc.) I almost thought he was describing having a period =0p LoL. I thought about saying it out loud, but since I'm not a very nice person when I feel ill, I thought better of it. Anyway, because he wasn't feeling well, he decided to go out and indulge himself. He brought home brownies and cookies. Ugh! If I wasn't going to lose weight before, that sure won't help! I ate a brownie with him last night, and a piece of cookie dough. I'm going to try very hard to let him eat the rest of the pan of brownies on his own. I didn't even *really* enjoy them, so why indulge? The cookie dough on the other hand *drools* --well, cookies are a definite downfall for me. Maybe I'll "up my intensity" at the gym tonight just to not feel too bad about the cookie dough I'll eat later. One piece isn't good --but as long as I avoid eating 5 or 6 I should be okay.
On a bright note, when I flex my arm I can actually feel a muscle now. It it still covered in fat and it isn't very big --but it is there!
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Lots to think on
So, I've been working out almost 2 weeks now. Why haven't I lost any weight? I mean, even without changing my eating routine, shouldn't I have lost something? No bull-hockey about muscle weighing more, I know it isn't muscle growth stunting weight loss. I'm kind of depressed about it.
The lady at the gym (one of the trainers) said she'd give me some "healthy" recipes to try out. I'm kind of excited, but they have to be "good" for me (a picky eater) and the fiance. I'm willing to try some new stuff, but living on such a tight budget, I hope she adds a lot of bean recipes to the mix =0p Beans are good for you, and cheap!
I'm currently working my getting my Masters degree. I've shared that information before, but what I haven't shared is that I'm totally stuck. I'm tired of school. Which is sad, but it is true. I've been thinking seriously about applying for some jobs. My mom suggested an internship to me today. My thought was "I'll go check it out!" The internship is in the HR office of a hospital. I thought it all sounded good until I checked out the time requirement. It is a 2 year internship! They might as well call it an apprenticeship. LoL. Good news is, interns make $30,000 a year (not "good" money, but nothing to sneeze at). Once you are done interning it has a very high "permanent hiring" rate. Those people generally make $48,000 a year. So, here is the question. Do I put the Masters on the back burner? Do I agree to giving away 2 years of my life? Do I take a job that has never particularly interested me before (HR isn't really where I dreamed I'd go with my life)?
I don't know the answers to those questions yet. One thought is, it can never hurt to get interviewing practice. Another thought is, gosh we could use the money.
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The lady at the gym (one of the trainers) said she'd give me some "healthy" recipes to try out. I'm kind of excited, but they have to be "good" for me (a picky eater) and the fiance. I'm willing to try some new stuff, but living on such a tight budget, I hope she adds a lot of bean recipes to the mix =0p Beans are good for you, and cheap!
I'm currently working my getting my Masters degree. I've shared that information before, but what I haven't shared is that I'm totally stuck. I'm tired of school. Which is sad, but it is true. I've been thinking seriously about applying for some jobs. My mom suggested an internship to me today. My thought was "I'll go check it out!" The internship is in the HR office of a hospital. I thought it all sounded good until I checked out the time requirement. It is a 2 year internship! They might as well call it an apprenticeship. LoL. Good news is, interns make $30,000 a year (not "good" money, but nothing to sneeze at). Once you are done interning it has a very high "permanent hiring" rate. Those people generally make $48,000 a year. So, here is the question. Do I put the Masters on the back burner? Do I agree to giving away 2 years of my life? Do I take a job that has never particularly interested me before (HR isn't really where I dreamed I'd go with my life)?
I don't know the answers to those questions yet. One thought is, it can never hurt to get interviewing practice. Another thought is, gosh we could use the money.
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Monday, July 21, 2008
1 week in...
Yay! I went an entire week of excersise! I am kind of proud of myself. Especially since at least once the fiance tried to talk me out of it. Right now, we are taking Sundays off to give our body a little rest. Which works out well because that is the day I go to visit my family and attend church.
So, my fiance keeps asking me "is it getting easier" when it comes to lifting weights. After a week, I think I have to say "no" My arms are exceptionally weak it seems. I know it is a growing process, but I worry a bit that I'm not growing at a rate that is exceptable to my fiance. I keep telling him that I am trying, but in my heart of hearts I don't think he believes me. He keeps saying that I have to learn to like going --well, after never in my life wanting to excersise, I have a hard time believing that I'll one day wake up and be eager to go off and do it. It is a means to an end for me. I want to look better, feel better, have more energy, and not look like a mass of dripping flesh when I go to interview for jobs. It is something that *has* to be done --not something that I have to enjoy. I'm not saying that to just be stubborn, I'm just not a very physical person --if I was a physical person, I'd probably never have gotten into this shape in the first place.
If anyone has recipes posted on their blog, or knows a good site for recipes, please let me know =) If I'm getting my "work-out" portion of life into order, I'd like to start working on my diet portion as well.
So, my fiance keeps asking me "is it getting easier" when it comes to lifting weights. After a week, I think I have to say "no" My arms are exceptionally weak it seems. I know it is a growing process, but I worry a bit that I'm not growing at a rate that is exceptable to my fiance. I keep telling him that I am trying, but in my heart of hearts I don't think he believes me. He keeps saying that I have to learn to like going --well, after never in my life wanting to excersise, I have a hard time believing that I'll one day wake up and be eager to go off and do it. It is a means to an end for me. I want to look better, feel better, have more energy, and not look like a mass of dripping flesh when I go to interview for jobs. It is something that *has* to be done --not something that I have to enjoy. I'm not saying that to just be stubborn, I'm just not a very physical person --if I was a physical person, I'd probably never have gotten into this shape in the first place.
If anyone has recipes posted on their blog, or knows a good site for recipes, please let me know =) If I'm getting my "work-out" portion of life into order, I'd like to start working on my diet portion as well.
Friday, July 18, 2008
The hard stuff
So, when you go to the gym and they get out a tape measure, that's the hard stuff. I'm looking at it as a "this tells me where I am" point though. So, on the first day at the gym, this is how I measured. Hopefully in a month, I'll get an update. (one tiny side note --the guy doing the measuring was terrified to touch me. hehe. I think having my fiance in the room made it hard for him to wrap a tape measure around my chest, so I think some of the measurements may be a tiny bit off --but since the same guy will measure me next time, I'm just going to consider that fact my +/- factor. hehe)
Bust: 41.5
Waist: 40
Hips: 45
Thighs: 23.5
Arms: 13.25
Resting Heart Rate: 79 (this is actually high for me. My heart is normally around 72, but as I pointed out to the little F*ck --who I actually like-- he'd just taken my weight. Of course it was a little high! *grumbles*)
Blood Pressure 126/80 (he told me this may be completely un-accurate. I guess the batteries in the machine were dying. Again, that blood pressure isn't "normal" for me. Mine is normally low)
Which bad news to post first --%of body fat? or weight? hehe. *takes a deep breath and remembers this is just a "starting point"
Starting weight: 193
% of Body Fat: 40.8
Today will be my 7th day in a row at the gym. I haven't gotten too adventurous yet. I work out on the machines I was told to use under the supervision of my fiance. He is one of those guys that has been in a gym since football in high school. No, that doesn't necessarily make him "fit" --but he definitely knows what is going on. He likes learning about workout/fitness/nutrition, but much like the rest of us, he is subject to his bad habits.
Every time I go to the gym, I can't help but want to hop on the scale. It is a means of redemption in some ways. A shout out to the world that I am trying to do something. And, the pain in my arms/legs has to be at least equivalent to one pound lost, right? =0p
Bust: 41.5
Waist: 40
Hips: 45
Thighs: 23.5
Arms: 13.25
Resting Heart Rate: 79 (this is actually high for me. My heart is normally around 72, but as I pointed out to the little F*ck --who I actually like-- he'd just taken my weight. Of course it was a little high! *grumbles*)
Blood Pressure 126/80 (he told me this may be completely un-accurate. I guess the batteries in the machine were dying. Again, that blood pressure isn't "normal" for me. Mine is normally low)
Which bad news to post first --%of body fat? or weight? hehe. *takes a deep breath and remembers this is just a "starting point"
Starting weight: 193
% of Body Fat: 40.8
Today will be my 7th day in a row at the gym. I haven't gotten too adventurous yet. I work out on the machines I was told to use under the supervision of my fiance. He is one of those guys that has been in a gym since football in high school. No, that doesn't necessarily make him "fit" --but he definitely knows what is going on. He likes learning about workout/fitness/nutrition, but much like the rest of us, he is subject to his bad habits.
Every time I go to the gym, I can't help but want to hop on the scale. It is a means of redemption in some ways. A shout out to the world that I am trying to do something. And, the pain in my arms/legs has to be at least equivalent to one pound lost, right? =0p
Thursday, July 17, 2008
hiya =)
I am still painting. Who knew that paint was so freakin' expensive? We've spent almost $500 so far. Yikes! We've painted the front room (tv room), the entry way, the master bedroom and bathroom, and one of the upstairs bedrooms, and the upstairs hallway, and guest bathroom. We still have one bedroom, kitchen, downstairs bedroom and tv/game room to finish up the inside painting. Outside we need to stain the deck and re-paint the outside railings. Ugh.
The date for the wedding has been tenatively set for April of 2009. I've weighed in at just under 200 pounds again (198), so the fiance and I have joined a gym to make some "wedding day" goals. I'll try to actually keep this thing updated. I miss the support.
I am still painting. Who knew that paint was so freakin' expensive? We've spent almost $500 so far. Yikes! We've painted the front room (tv room), the entry way, the master bedroom and bathroom, and one of the upstairs bedrooms, and the upstairs hallway, and guest bathroom. We still have one bedroom, kitchen, downstairs bedroom and tv/game room to finish up the inside painting. Outside we need to stain the deck and re-paint the outside railings. Ugh.
The date for the wedding has been tenatively set for April of 2009. I've weighed in at just under 200 pounds again (198), so the fiance and I have joined a gym to make some "wedding day" goals. I'll try to actually keep this thing updated. I miss the support.
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