Boo to goals...

Well, I was kind of down on myself the other day. Those "goals" I created are all ready WAY off track. I weighed in at 166 last Thursday, so hopefully I'll be near 164 this thursday. I'm not holding my breath too much though. It isn't that I haven't been motivated to be good, it is just a lack of motivation in general. I think getting turned down for one too many jobs has got me feeling a little "bleh". I'm not eating to overcome this bleh feeling....just not pushing to be overly good either.

I was feeling pretty unsuccessful yesterday, but you know what....I've lost 30 pounds. That's in and of itself is an accomplishment =) I've decided I"ll celebrate that 30 pound loss and slowly keep chugging away. I'm only 16 pounds away from my first mini goal. Another 30 pounds from being smoking hot. LoL. Okay, maybe not quite *that* hot, but I'm on my way. I might be going slower than I'd like....but I'm at least working on it =)

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Ugh...

I ate CRAP all weekend long. I hate that. I hate that I apparently lack all willpower to stop eating stuff I know is bad for me for one reason, and one reason alone. LAZINESS. It is so much easier to go flop down at a restaurant or order a pizza than to cook something for us. Sad thing is, for teh most part, I think the food we produce at home is just as tastey as eating out. I'm just too lazy to put the effort into planning the food in advance so we have all the bits and pieces here at home when I'm ready to cook.

So, step 1 to remedy that: Make a food plan.

Step 2 to remedy that: Actually stick to the food plan =0p

Is it absolutely evil to think your diet partner is trying to sabatoge your "eating well" goals? =0p My fiance and I are in on the WW plan together. However, lately, he has been getting worse and worse about suggesting we "just grab a pizza" or "open a bottle of wine". I mean, honestly, he *knows* I'm not going to say "no" to wine because more often than not it is partnered with me getting to fill up a hot bath and just relax. Argh! What an evil little man! LoL.

Funny thing is, I just got off the phone with my sister and asked how her weight loss goals were progressing. She told me she'd fallen off the wagon, but "I'll stick to it tomorrow". Isn't it amazing how we always promise ourselves tomorrow?

Daily chores...

Laundry (dark and light colors) washed and folded
Carpets Vaccuumed
Dishes Washed
Trash taken out

That's what I've gotten accomplished today. I still need to put away the dishes, clean the kitchen, take the newspaper to the recycle place, take books to the library, and buy cupcake mix (and make them) for a birthday. I don't think it is all going to get done.

I fell off the diet hardcore, but I'm wroking really hard to get back on it. I haven't made it back to the gym yet, but maybe I'll go out walking tonight (it is a beautiful day). I've tried to write down my goals, hopefully that will help keep me on track a little bit better. I'm going to try to post them on the side bar. I'm also thinking about maybe starting to post pics. I don't know why but I hate the idea of losing anonimity. But maybe I need to break out of that feeling. I think having extra weight makes you "blend in" --ever notice that people don't want to hang out with the fat kid? That's me. I took time out of life and used extra weight as an excuse. Maybe it is time for that to end.