Well, heck...

My weight continues to go up. What the heck is going on? My food intake has been about the same. If anything, I wasn't eating enough points with that Taco Soup (2 or 3 points a cup --I don't remember which with a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese thrown in for fun making it 5 points per bowl) Maybe my body was reacting poorly to undereating? I wonder how quickly your body can decide to go into "starvation mode" I'm not really buying it...but I'm pretty bummed that the scale is moving in the wrong direction. =(

I'm about to get some major motivation for eating better and getting off my butt more often. Today, I think I"m going to go try on wedding dresses. We'll see if any of them fit. LoL. I'm going to try to take pics (hopefully the dress shop doesn't mind) so I can see what areas I *really* need to improve on. I guess I all ready kind of know though....I really need to hit some cardio (get rid of fat) and tone up my arms. I don't know why, but they seem to be getting flabbier as my stomach gets flatter. LoL. If the scale didn't tell me that I'd lost *some* weight --I think I'd begin to doubt it.

Off to the dress shop I go! Hopefully I'll post some pics today or tomorrow.

omg! not only did I fit in wedding dresses....I actually looked really good in some of them. The one I liked the best was $800. Jeez! I think my sister might be right. It might be time to look into renting a dress =0p

you know those days...

You know those days when you wake up thinking you "feel skinny"? I woke up feeling that way this morning. I just felt slim and trim...so I pulled out the scale and I was up almost 2.5 pounds. WTH? LoL. Oh well, I still feel slim and trim....so *rasberries scale* that's what I think of that. This is wednesday, official weigh in day is tomorrow. Hope it goes back down before then!

Boo to goals...

Well, I was kind of down on myself the other day. Those "goals" I created are all ready WAY off track. I weighed in at 166 last Thursday, so hopefully I'll be near 164 this thursday. I'm not holding my breath too much though. It isn't that I haven't been motivated to be good, it is just a lack of motivation in general. I think getting turned down for one too many jobs has got me feeling a little "bleh". I'm not eating to overcome this bleh feeling....just not pushing to be overly good either.

I was feeling pretty unsuccessful yesterday, but you know what....I've lost 30 pounds. That's in and of itself is an accomplishment =) I've decided I"ll celebrate that 30 pound loss and slowly keep chugging away. I'm only 16 pounds away from my first mini goal. Another 30 pounds from being smoking hot. LoL. Okay, maybe not quite *that* hot, but I'm on my way. I might be going slower than I'd like....but I'm at least working on it =)

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Ugh...

I ate CRAP all weekend long. I hate that. I hate that I apparently lack all willpower to stop eating stuff I know is bad for me for one reason, and one reason alone. LAZINESS. It is so much easier to go flop down at a restaurant or order a pizza than to cook something for us. Sad thing is, for teh most part, I think the food we produce at home is just as tastey as eating out. I'm just too lazy to put the effort into planning the food in advance so we have all the bits and pieces here at home when I'm ready to cook.

So, step 1 to remedy that: Make a food plan.

Step 2 to remedy that: Actually stick to the food plan =0p

Is it absolutely evil to think your diet partner is trying to sabatoge your "eating well" goals? =0p My fiance and I are in on the WW plan together. However, lately, he has been getting worse and worse about suggesting we "just grab a pizza" or "open a bottle of wine". I mean, honestly, he *knows* I'm not going to say "no" to wine because more often than not it is partnered with me getting to fill up a hot bath and just relax. Argh! What an evil little man! LoL.

Funny thing is, I just got off the phone with my sister and asked how her weight loss goals were progressing. She told me she'd fallen off the wagon, but "I'll stick to it tomorrow". Isn't it amazing how we always promise ourselves tomorrow?

Daily chores...

Laundry (dark and light colors) washed and folded
Carpets Vaccuumed
Dishes Washed
Trash taken out

That's what I've gotten accomplished today. I still need to put away the dishes, clean the kitchen, take the newspaper to the recycle place, take books to the library, and buy cupcake mix (and make them) for a birthday. I don't think it is all going to get done.

I fell off the diet hardcore, but I'm wroking really hard to get back on it. I haven't made it back to the gym yet, but maybe I'll go out walking tonight (it is a beautiful day). I've tried to write down my goals, hopefully that will help keep me on track a little bit better. I'm going to try to post them on the side bar. I'm also thinking about maybe starting to post pics. I don't know why but I hate the idea of losing anonimity. But maybe I need to break out of that feeling. I think having extra weight makes you "blend in" --ever notice that people don't want to hang out with the fat kid? That's me. I took time out of life and used extra weight as an excuse. Maybe it is time for that to end.

Help! I've fallen....

So, Valentines day threw me off the weight loss wagon...and I landed hard. We were doing better, getting back on track until the phone rang monday morning. Phones ringing at 7am are never good. A family member who had bad health issues to begin with had passed away.

Off the wagon again. It is almost ridiculous to say, but I honestly feel out of control with my eating. I can't stop craving the "bad stuff". Monday begins a new week and a renewed focus on improvment...but I've got to get the candy back out of the house!!!

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The fallout from Valentines day...

I hope everyone had a wonderful V-day! I know mine was good/fun. I asked for my fiance to make me alfredo *drools*. It was great! He also made some steaks. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I made some oatmeal cookies?

Long story short, the day was great, but the night was filled my tummy hurting. The next day was somewhat painful too. LoL. I guess eating "healthier" has me unable to out-and-out splurge on foods. IT was all fabulous though. I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

With all the indulgences this week, I was a little afraid to step on the scale this morning. Friday morning has been the traditional weigh in day though --so I figured good, bad, or ugly, I better do it. *drum roll please*

168.2 --same as the last weigh in. I'm soooooo excited. I know, doesn't really "mean" too much, but I'm excited I stayed the same. I have to commit to being exceptionally good this weekend and upcoming week. Must say "no" to the pizza --which has recently been sneaking back into the weekly food rotation.

Being at 168 pounds is very cool for a number of reasons. First off, it means I've solidly lost 20 pounds. Depending on where I "start" my weight loss from. (I know I weighed as much as 198 before I started kind of yo-yo dieting) I also know that I've lost another WW point. So I have to be smart about that. I guess it really signifies that I'm trying to do this though. The first 10 pounds could have been written off to water weight and such....this is a commitment. I'm going to do this! I'm going to lose the weight. 30 more pounds to go.

I look forward to seeing some size 12 jeans in my future. Another 10 pounds to lose before I start trying on some old dresses and begging to be taken out on a date =0p